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I just uploaded pictures from last weekend. The pictures are full of fall colors and sunshine. Cozy hats but not yet winter boots. Our busy, busy, full and fleeting days.


I woke to snow this morning. Should have known when Lucy was going nuts in the middle of the night. Didn't even put it together, just muttered at her, dragged my body from bed, opened the back door and felt the rush of cold air that screams, It's here.

Drove out to some hot springs with my lady colleague posse to celebrate the up-coming birth of a new MIS baby. Snow dusted the mountain tops and roadsides. The larch shouted their yellow breaths our way. The trees towered and the Clark Fork looked sleepy.


Seasons move fast around these parts. Children grow. Mama's settle. Snow drifts.


I'm feeling so happy right now. Happy in a grounded way. Happy in a calm way. Happy in a lots of dance party mornings way. Happy in a go to bed at 9:00 way. Happy in a peppermint tea kinda way.

Jeff's gone for the weekend. He'll be gone again next weekend and into the week. I miss him but I also know, I've got this. I just have to keep it simple. Long jammy days. Let all the toys litter the floor. Move from thing to thing and back. Just groove to their little rhythm.

They are so perfect. They love each other so much. They love me so much. It's really, really lovely.

Sol says, "Eleee, Eleee!" He points to the radio and says, "Woah, woah, woah!" to signal his favorite Michael Franti tune. He's got rhythm that boy. He talks about his friends all the time. His favorite phrase is, "Thank you!"

And Eliana has entered a phase of all things princess, all things Disney. She has yet to see a princess movie, but acts like she's the total authority. She sang a mean Ariel in the tub tonight. She's creative and determined and really weird.


I think she's pretty awesome.
Halloween was almost too much for all of us to bear. There was such build up. So many changes in costume. She finally settle on Angelina Ballerina and was pretty damn sweet in her big ears and twirly dress.

After a very full school day, we found ourselves preparing for the big event, the big, trick or treat. Eliana and Sol moved slowly and carefully from house to house.


Eliana was so overwhelmed by the giant bowls of candy she could hardly speak. This is quite unusual for her. Sol on the other hand would grab a few tiny fistfuls and then insist on carrying them the whole way to the next house. He would then try to return them to the next bowl. This was the game until he ate through a Snicker's wrapper and realized what was inside. He stopped giving them back after that.

I see these pictures and he looks so small but in the moment, ah, in the moment, he is so very big. I can't believe that was just this week. So much action packed into every single day. So many moments to hold on to.