waiting...

so i can't really believe that i'm doing this, creating a blog and all. those of you who know me know that i hardly know what a blog is and am thoroughly computer illiterate. but here i am about to birth this baby with friends and family all over the place - how else in this day and age do you tell folks all about it, if not with the computer? i also am determined to learn a thing or two about this fabulous new computer that we have, so alas, we begin the learning.

it is very, very hot today in missoula and i'm trying my best to stay cool and deflated. jeff suggested we have a scavenger hunt to find my ankles...needless to say, i'm huge. at 39 weeks pregnant, i am absolutely enormous. i could go on and on and complain with mega prego symptoms, but i don't want to be that kind of pregnant lady. i do want to say that i cannot wait to meet this little girl inside of me. i cannot wait to hold her and feel her kick on the outside. i can't wait to smell her sweet baby smell and feel her breath and see her face.

what a journey this has been. i had lunch with a friend who is eighteen weeks pregnant the other day and it was so cool to feel like the knowledgeable one. after all the reading and yoga and birth classes, i actually know a thing or two about this pregnancy thing. and, i'm feeling pretty darn excited to learn a thing or two about the birth thing, in the real, here and now, hands on way. no more of this 'imagine your having a contraction' and breathe through the pain. i want that warrior woman moment. i want to move my hips and squat and hear the primal sounds that come from me. i'm tired of being afraid and anxious and scared of pooping myself. i'm just so ready to meet her!