ups and downs

baby and i are trying to get used to the ups and downs. for example, on saturday, mama was feeling like a hundred bucks. we went down to the farmer's market where all sorts of admirers oogled at eliana. then after a restful afternoon, i got all ready to be in the "betty's divine" fashion show. i wasn't going to do it at first. while i was super flattered to be asked (especially since i've been feeling a bit of the post pregnancy frumps), i thought it was flippant and silly and certainly not something for a haggard mama to be to do on her saturday night. but my friend bri convinced me, and next thing i knew, i was being fitted in some fabulously sexy (and flattering, i might add) pants and getting ready to strut my stuff. on saturday i felt a little less ready. it seemed everyone else in the fashion show was much younger and much hipper than i, certainly not frumps in the least. they had more fabulously accessories and had definitely spent more time on their hair and make-up. but i went out there and did my thing on the runway. even though i was frantically searching the crowd for jeff and elie, trying to hear if she was crying, and really didn't care too much about how i looked, it was a good experience for a five week old mama.

then on sunday, riding on saturday's high, i took myself on a fantastic hike up waterworks hill. i did the whole loop, something i haven't done since my second trimester, or so, of pregnancy. it was the most gorgeous day we've had in weeks, bright blue sunshine, billowy montana clouds, and shiny, happy folks all about. eliana slept beautifully in her carrier and we came home three hours later sharing sweat. it was really sweet.

but that evening i got stuck with an exhaustion headache. the headache turned into aches and pains and the early signs of the flu jeff was just getting over. we made it through the night but then had to get up to go to meetings at work today. not easy. i know that going back to work is going to be extremly tough. elie hated being at that meeting and could give two hoots about all the procedures and policies of a new school year. we left at lunch, passed out, and didn't make it back. ah, the ups and downs....